There's a child

Surely you must have broken something a long time ago,
Surely you must have, surely you must have, but I don't feel traumatised;
Anyone who came into my life afterwards only to end up scummy filth
Seems to have left more of an impression than you ever did;
My heart is filled with more anger for the rest of my world,
More anger than what I've ever directed at you for years.

I laugh at you,
I laugh at how pitiful you get,
I laugh at your utter lack of anything ever;
But don't I always laugh when it's so bad it could kill?
Oh, don't I always laugh when my very core is in danger, and so, surely,
You must have broken something a long time ago

There's a child inside of me that still daydreams of a kind you
The same fantasies I had back then even though I knew they couldn't come true
But you're horrible, and there's quite nothing I depict you with that belongs
To your own actual character, oh so horrible, but I've never stopped wishing for wrong

It's not right that despite the harm, that despite the undeniable harm, I dance around,
I forget who you are and how your friends were to me to sing and write,
Wishes upon wishes of another reality, and I don't even think of it on purpose,
It comes to me so easily,
Too easily,
A child needs to be set free.